No way, man!

Oh great, I actually managed to miss Yes Man! Yes, I'm disappointed about it, but on the other hand, I would trying getting this movie with other means. (Yes, I'm not saying what way I am using.)

2009 has been quite kind to me, and I am very thankful for that. This year started well for me and I've learnt quite a few things about life:

- I have friends who appreciate me and accepted me for who I was. A really big thank you to them. I am really grateful towards them. I'll try to improve and be a better person before things happen again. (Touch wood.) I must learn to not talk but listen and keep quiet more often.

- Being 18 is no big deal, especially when your birthday happens in November. Only in November, I'll be of legal age. Now, I can only see everyone around me buy stuff like alcohol while I sulk. Haha! It's not that bad, I can get people to buy it for me instead. But, it's an additional step needed. Oh well~

- Rich people don't always live in a big room and have a huge bed, especially when you are in another country and staying with your relatives. I was kind of shocked. I didn't expect such a small space, but I have to admit it is kind of cosy. Although it is a small room, things inside worth a bomb considered to those of my room. What can I expect? :)

- Life is supposed to be stressful for me now, like it is for everyone in my class. However, I am not feeling the pressure yet, and I wonder if it is a good sign or not. I am not stressed, but there are 7 ICAs (aka projects and tests) coming up soon, very soon. Right after those seven, my exams will be tagging along. I need to work harder.

A note to myself: I wanna meet Meryl Streep and chat with her about everything under the sun/moon/stars/planets/milkyway/blackhole or whatever, just everything. :(

Fly Away.

After all that 'commotion', I'm here, once again.

Yes, it's my fault, everything is my fault, everything including those that's their fault are also my fault. They ditched me, so I ditched being scared. Talking things out might not be the best way out, people. Oh ya, being not-as-vocal-or-outspoken-as-them is also bad. No one is asking them to understand what I am thinking totally. It's just that when I don't speak, it doesn't mean I'm pissed everytime. Oh, come on, everyone has their quiet, little time to themselves randomly. I'm not the same, so I must be leave.

Okay, enough about that. Term break was right after the let-me-try-talk-things-out-with-them and it is ending in around 2 hours? Noooooooooo! I wasted my holidays, once again. Well, not really, I guess.

Yey, I went over the borders to Malaysia for a day of shopping!
Yey, I bought a cheap top there!
Yey, I bought chewing gums and bubble gums!
Yey, we bought shows!
Yey, we ate cheap and good food!
Yey, I went Christmas shopping with my sister back in Singapore!
Yey, I bought another top!
Yey, we managed to buy the presents!
Yey, I watched Madagascar 2, but not in the movies!
Yey, I didn't go for secret santa and things got even worse!
Yey, Christmas party with my secondary school friends was good!
Yey, Christmas lunch with my family was good!
Yey, I bought a pair of sandals and a pair of slippers!
Yey, I managed to download The Devil Wears Prada ebook from online!
Yey, I rid my laptop of a small virus!
Boo, school is starting!

Scared.

I was right. I mean what I said in my previous post. Except for a little mistake, one problem have not ended, yet another came along.

I have totally no idea what it is about; all I know that it is about me and they are, okay, they look like they are going to ditch me. Totally ditching me. Of course, I'm scared, in fact, very scared. I don't know what they have been saying, I don't know what I've done wrong. I thought I was trying my best to solve the previous problem when no one said or done anything yet. Maybe talking to only one person will not solve the problem, but I didn't realise that it will get worse and worse.

I think it's my fault, no matter what they have been saying, because if I did not do something wrong, they wouldn't have something to talk about. I don't know, really, I'm afraid that I will break down. Everything is giving my head a big spin. I feel like crying, I feel like bursting out into tears.

Wow, so many "I"s in this post. Anyway, I have not watched the movies yet! Except for Bolt, which was quite good, I must say. I didn't expect it to be good, I just expected it to be cute. Hahaha! The show is worth watching, so if anyone happens to see this, try and catch it! (I think that this is the first time I cried twice for a cartoon. If I'm not wrong.)

Uptown Girl

I'm holding on, or rather, trying to hold on. To what? To the friendship we have, to the clique we are in. Splitting will come gradually, if no one decides to do anything about it. How I wish things will go back to the way it is before, but we know that it is impossible with all the thorns within our hearts. Sad, but that is true, and I don't know whether we all feel the same or not.

A classmate told me that girl cliques always have this kind of problems. Oh well, how true. One problem just ended, and another come right along. It is not only teenagers who have this problem, even adults face this crap too. Shocking to some people, but it is a cruel world. Oh man~

Anyway, I've neither started reading 'The Devil Wears Prada' nor watched Madagascar. That is a huge disappointment for me. Look on the bright side, as in my bright side, holidays are coming! Not exactly that bright though, with all the projects tagging along. 2/3 of my clique (oh wow) will be having a secretive Christmas party with some of my other classmates. It is a secretive party, so there will be secret Santa!

Hohoho! Merry Christmas! :) Stay happy, everyone!

Uh-lee-ter-bee-heh-pi. (A Little Bit Happy.)

My friend took quite a while to understand the title, so I added in the actual meaning I'm trying to convey.

Anyway, I got a new bag! It is a belated birthday present from my sister. Saw it in a shop today, and bought it after we walked the entire shopping mall! I like the material of the bag, both the outer and inner layer. It doesn't look that good in the picture, but it's pretty and it's brown! The thing is, it is kind of expensive too, because the brand name isn't very good.

Oh, take another look at the picture! The green laptop bag behind is also one of my presents, from my friends in secondary school. So sweet of them to get it in my favourite colour, green! I heard from my other friends that this brand is not cheap, so it makes me feel guilty. Anyway, love them!

I've got 'The Devil wears Prada' from my friend already, have not started on it yet, but I am absolutely looking forward to reading it. Who cares whether it is not as good as the movie?!

I screwed up my test too. Heck it! Life is too short to bother so much about little things like that! (Actually, it's quite important. It concerns the 15% grades of that particular module for me.) Time for me to go back to work on my story plot and beats; the due date is this friday! Gosh!

Ah ha!

I admit, I should be studying for a test tomorrow and here I am, adding some interesting looking gadget to my little lonely blog. But I couldn't resist it! Doesn't it look cute! I love the world map.

Anyway, I sense an upcoming change, or probably it's my imagination or maybe doubt ;). It is quite obvious to everyone with eyes to see that changes are taking over slowly. All my friends have a personal little space in my heart. The size of it depends on how close we are, the closer, the bigger. As simple as that. While I do not like the idea of reducing the size of that particular little space, it is best that I let go before, as I said before, things become ugly. Forget it, friends like that will come and go no matter how unwilling we are.

On a lighter note, my friend has the novel 'The Devil Wears Prada'! Why am I happy? I do not need to go to the library to look for it again and borrow it for a limited amount of time. My fabulous friend will do me a favor by lending it to me, although she says that the movie is much better. ;)

I want to catch Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa in the cinemas before it is gone! It looks so amusing! That fabulous friend say I will absolutely love the movie!

Oh! Doubt is coming out next year, 29th January 2009 in Singapore. I know it is slow, but it is seriously much better than not coming to Singapore at all! Meryl Streep is in it! Love her! Amy Adams is in it too, and I think she is not bad! Love the colour of her eyes, something we Asians cannot have without the help of contact lenses! Oh well! Woo! Meryl Streep! :D:D

One Copy?

I feel like a total loser. :(

By the way, I'm hearing this (inserts yakking hand gestures) and I want to hear this (inserts zipping hand gestures). Sounds familiar, or looks familiar? Its from The Devil Wears Prada, another wonder by Meryl as usual. :)