Can Humans live without friends?

Just stating a basic fact: I do have a close group of friends, so I'm not a total loner.

I've been wondering about that statement for quite some time. I feel that having to communicate constantly and meeting up often is tiring. I'm not a people's person; I might not be suitable for the industry I'm heading towards. Maybe I should hide somewhere where contact with humans are minimal.

The more you get to know someone, the more disgusted you'll feel about people, as a whole. Like how reliant some people are, how often you are used by others, the times where poor communication erupts in misunderstandings and any amount of explanations are always not enough. It is exhausting.

I'm sick, of communication. My head hurts. I feel faint.

On the bright side, I'm finally catching Julie and Julia on Friday. It's going to be off the cinemas very soon in Singapore, so I need to catch it before then!

I'm scared, actually.

I think I need a dog. Either that, or I need a hole in the floor. I need a ear. I don't need a reply or console, I just want to talk.

A new semester is going to start tomorrow. I'm used to those sickening gossips, but I'm not sure how to handle them successfully. Oh well, we'll see how it goes. They say gossips die in 7 weeks. By now, hopefully it's gone. Haha!

I think I'm not a good daughter. I'm ashamed of myself. Various reasons make me feel so disappointed in myself. It is hard to do anything now that things are like this. I try to ignore everything, which doesn't solve the problem. Trust, I believe, is difficult to regain, especially after years. Karma will get back at me for this, definitely, and I would not blame anyone except myself.

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See, that's why I need a listener.

Movie.

If I'm in a Superhero action pack movie, I want my own unique power.

To be able to draw out identical weapons and skills from characters in comic books is what I want. I can have Sode no Shirayuki or Senbonzakura in my hands when I fight. I think Zangetsu is too heavy for me! Not only from Bleach, I can utilize the skills and intelligence of Negi Sensei, power up my attacks with the help of Tsuna or create magical barriers like Yoshimori.

Heck it, I can attain physical strength from those of Street Fighter or fly on the clouds with those Dragon Ball punks. Hahaha, this is getting crazy.

Oh whatever, I think I'll be invincible with this skill. No other heroes can outdo me. ;)

Hiragana.

Sometimes, it is hard to persevere on with problems running through your head. Should we trust that they are harmless, or decide to get hurt by them.

Even I comment on others behind-their-backs; I don't know whether commenting is as bad as gossiping? I should be used to everything and look on the bright side. By the end of the day, I feel that I might have trusting issues, which is something I fear. I absolutely do not want to live in suspicion everyday; it is too tiring.

"Harmless; they are harmless."

I am someone with limited attention span. That's why I always leave things undone. For example, learning Japanese has been dragging on and on for months. I haven't even memorized the basic Hiragana; I'm trying to learn them again. Wish me luck.