Fly Away.

After all that 'commotion', I'm here, once again.

Yes, it's my fault, everything is my fault, everything including those that's their fault are also my fault. They ditched me, so I ditched being scared. Talking things out might not be the best way out, people. Oh ya, being not-as-vocal-or-outspoken-as-them is also bad. No one is asking them to understand what I am thinking totally. It's just that when I don't speak, it doesn't mean I'm pissed everytime. Oh, come on, everyone has their quiet, little time to themselves randomly. I'm not the same, so I must be leave.

Okay, enough about that. Term break was right after the let-me-try-talk-things-out-with-them and it is ending in around 2 hours? Noooooooooo! I wasted my holidays, once again. Well, not really, I guess.

Yey, I went over the borders to Malaysia for a day of shopping!
Yey, I bought a cheap top there!
Yey, I bought chewing gums and bubble gums!
Yey, we bought shows!
Yey, we ate cheap and good food!
Yey, I went Christmas shopping with my sister back in Singapore!
Yey, I bought another top!
Yey, we managed to buy the presents!
Yey, I watched Madagascar 2, but not in the movies!
Yey, I didn't go for secret santa and things got even worse!
Yey, Christmas party with my secondary school friends was good!
Yey, Christmas lunch with my family was good!
Yey, I bought a pair of sandals and a pair of slippers!
Yey, I managed to download The Devil Wears Prada ebook from online!
Yey, I rid my laptop of a small virus!
Boo, school is starting!

Scared.

I was right. I mean what I said in my previous post. Except for a little mistake, one problem have not ended, yet another came along.

I have totally no idea what it is about; all I know that it is about me and they are, okay, they look like they are going to ditch me. Totally ditching me. Of course, I'm scared, in fact, very scared. I don't know what they have been saying, I don't know what I've done wrong. I thought I was trying my best to solve the previous problem when no one said or done anything yet. Maybe talking to only one person will not solve the problem, but I didn't realise that it will get worse and worse.

I think it's my fault, no matter what they have been saying, because if I did not do something wrong, they wouldn't have something to talk about. I don't know, really, I'm afraid that I will break down. Everything is giving my head a big spin. I feel like crying, I feel like bursting out into tears.

Wow, so many "I"s in this post. Anyway, I have not watched the movies yet! Except for Bolt, which was quite good, I must say. I didn't expect it to be good, I just expected it to be cute. Hahaha! The show is worth watching, so if anyone happens to see this, try and catch it! (I think that this is the first time I cried twice for a cartoon. If I'm not wrong.)

Uptown Girl

I'm holding on, or rather, trying to hold on. To what? To the friendship we have, to the clique we are in. Splitting will come gradually, if no one decides to do anything about it. How I wish things will go back to the way it is before, but we know that it is impossible with all the thorns within our hearts. Sad, but that is true, and I don't know whether we all feel the same or not.

A classmate told me that girl cliques always have this kind of problems. Oh well, how true. One problem just ended, and another come right along. It is not only teenagers who have this problem, even adults face this crap too. Shocking to some people, but it is a cruel world. Oh man~

Anyway, I've neither started reading 'The Devil Wears Prada' nor watched Madagascar. That is a huge disappointment for me. Look on the bright side, as in my bright side, holidays are coming! Not exactly that bright though, with all the projects tagging along. 2/3 of my clique (oh wow) will be having a secretive Christmas party with some of my other classmates. It is a secretive party, so there will be secret Santa!

Hohoho! Merry Christmas! :) Stay happy, everyone!